Friday, May 15, 2009

A heart that is full

Do you ever have those days or weeks or seasons in life where you feel your heart is so full it will burst? Like it can't handle one more breath - whether good or bad?

My baby daughter, Jenova, laughed at me tonight - nothing like it.

We'll be in three different states the next three weekends - I'm ready to be 'home' - wherever that is.

I love my team and miss 'my church family' in Ancona and I miss the sky in Italy. And the coffee.

I Skyped my brother and sister-in-law today - they are serving God in a closed war-torn country half-way across the world and I wanted so badly to be in that room with them - but grateful for technology that allowed for my kids to 'e-love on them'.

I finished grading papers tonight - glad to be done - regretting not spending more time with my students, several who have become friends.

I find myself literally falling head over heels in love with my wife and don't know why - I think I'm finally (after 13 years of marriage) beginning to learn some things about love...we double dated tonight with some of our best friends in the world.

I'm listening to Bon Iver sing 'Lovins for Fools'...enough said.

Do you ever feel pulled in so many directions and into so many relationships that you feel, all at once, so fortunate to know so many people, and so helpless to know who to say yes to and whom to say no to?

I sense that God is revealing to me a truth about myself that I'm terrified to face and accept, but one that I know is necessary for me in order to grow...